today went to sch with a face as if nth has happen at all ytd! so hate it man... i jus dun like to put a fake smile on my face lor... during de first half of de day... i jus could'nt smile at all... even ppl make joke, i jus kinda like pretend that it is farnie... during recess, wanted to walk up and say sorry to him, but when i gave him an eye contact, he jus look and walked away... not even nice at all... so i tot he was still angry with me... i jus dun care him and continue with my way. dan like normal lor... but! when i wanted to pass my fone to grace to let her listen to the song, agnes de hand was so nice lor, she accidently pushed my fone away leh, drop on the floor and everything drop out, cant find my batt leh, find here and there, thx to one sec1 or 2 girl, she found it and return to me... dan return to chinese klass and started, at that time, i was feeling so uncomfortable, and i msged da jie... msg here and there, msged till i cant tarhan and i breakdown... no one noticed but only grace noe, cuz she noe that this few days i feelin down... so she also cant do anything... wait till chinese klass finish le, i jus walked out with a FUCKING NICE FACE! and acted as nth has happen.. but dan wented back to klass and duno do wad, i jus cant listen well to my tcher... thinking of it... so i decide to msg him and ask if he is angry or not? he replied no... dan i phew~! he is not angry... dan i thx him for not being angry and ask him to promise me smth, dun ask anyone bout my things... but he didnt reply, so i knew that he cant promised me this... but i hope tat he dun get the wrong meanin. dan i msg da jie... msg till i also cant tarhan and breakdown... but no one saw it, cuz i was lookin outside.. dan i missed called grace, she asked me wad happenEd? i say nth... but in de end i told her, dan after sch le, we walk out and grace was not there, she mayb go see the problem le... hahas, how i noe she still inside school... haiz, waited for gs they all to let off dan i wanted to go home le, cuz i meeting someone today de... but hor, in de end nv meet le... but instead we went to techview and slack, dan cass call and asked where us? we quickly go find her lor... sat at mac and slack for sometime... dan decide to go to tm le... saw rafiah and faster ran to sit beside her... hahas, like wad seh. dan reach tm le... walk walk and laugh laugh, my mood started coming up le... thx to u guys for making my rest of the day happy... wanted to take foto with grace de...but forgort... haiz... dun wan to update anymore... my mood going down le...
to poh keong:not i dun wan to let u noe bout me, is tat i duno how to say....
to grace, guanshen, agnes, cassandra and casslyn: thx for being there with me today and made me happy... thx guys!
i tink i need a few days to cool myself down ba... but now for the time being, i will move one step back from him and jus become normal friends, not too close to him... until there is furhter improvement.... i tot tat me and him not friend animore le... haiz, jus dun wan to lose a gd friend... i tink i will stop here, cuz i feeling...