I lye down on my bed just now ... clearing my thoughts and asked myself , why am i back in sec5 ? like what teachers always likes to ask us ... i asked myself clearly , yet i could give myself an answer . it's a sin to lie , especially to yourself . i could answer mrs tay proudly that i wanna get my O level cert and move on to higher education , but i couldn't find an answer for myself ... perhaps it's really time i sit down and start drawing out what my life would be like for the rest of 2009 . isit going to be for the worst or for the best ?

i was sitting outside the office waiting for mr goh , and mrs foo walked pass me , she smiled at me and i returned a smile . i totally forget that i'm having maths remedial ! yet i returned a smile ! and when she walked out of the office , she signal me to return to the class for maths . AND I ANSWERED HER " OK I WILL BE THERE , YOU CARRY ON FIRST " what a dumb answer i gave ! initially , i wanted to skip , yet i told her that i'll be there ! what an great answer i've gave ... but i still walked out of school in the end ... i sound hopeless do i ? haha . well , that's tanjinhui for you : )

i feel like cancelling the outing that i've planned cause i feel that i'm such a failure in planning stuffs ...