alright, 5 more days only.... left with 5 more days.. i don't know what to say la.. a few months back this day i knew you.. and the 5 more days back the this month, u were there for me... you were there for me always.. no matter what.. but now u were like a different person.. u seems to have change a lot.. what can i do? can u just return to the past and be with me when i am sad ? cheer me up when i am down ? chat with me throughout the night ? we do bad things together and run away together ? it's all over already.. there is not turning back anymore . once it is over means it is over.. no use looking back and wanting to go back.. no one can help you.. if i knew that this would happen a few months ago, i would rather i don't know u at all , so that all this would not have happened at all .

looks like i am starting to going through another dark period of my life again.. but this time is alone.. i am alone going through the dark period.. without you.. looks like it is time for me to learn to be independent , like u always told me last time , u would not always be there for me.. u will have to leave me one day no matter what, so u asked me to be more independent..trust me not to listen to you.. and thought that the day would not come.. but it has happened.. everything has came true.. i wish that i knew this would happen and i would have myself prepared for all this upcoming stage.. it is just like in a game , u have lost and it is game over for u , left me alone fighting . i am dieing soon! without you, trust me! without you i am dieing soon, i cant cooped with everything , all coming towards me and i am trying my very best to fight them off. but one alone power is not enough at all!.. ever heard of united we stand? but we are not.. i am alone and i cant find you at all.. just hoping that i could get over the dark period of my life soon.. cause i am alone this time, i need you to accompany throughout it... you were the one who gave me support ... you were the one encouraging me not to give up.. but since i am alone, maybe i should give up...

please! if u are reading this post!! u would know who you are, don't be so cruel to me!.. i need your support, i don't wanna give up so soon.. but without you, i cant hang in there any much longer.. i need your support, not from any other friends but only u ...