Tuesday, September 11, 2007

had gastric like mad today in school! wads wrong uh? gastric non-stop! rest and rest and rest! non-stop the resting... did not message friend today! wonder how is he?? hope he fine ba...
after school accompany chan huei for a while cause shanice and chu shing don't know fly where already... afterwards went to HTA with the sec2s for their shooting! my friend told me that his school will have a NCO accompanying!... maybe sakib or so.. went there and there was no NCO with them.. saw weiliang! my ATC groupmate!!! hahas. he looks more handsome in his school uniform and more hair and with specs! exchange contacts as that time did not have enough time to..
at first the sec2s was afraid that they will not do well for the shooting!... but when they came out, smile on their faces and some even wanted to go in and try again... while waiting for others to come out... we dared shafeena to call varun darling and she did! this time i dare her to tell varun "i love you" she did say but very soft.. maybe she doesn't wanna disgrace herself ba.. haha.
don't know why they like to laugh at varun.. sometimes find him quite poor thing... non of his squad mates wanna talk to him... ke lians!
board the bus back to school! the bus was like so LOUSY! the air-con was not cooling enough... and can even see smoke coming in from the back of the bus! and it STINKS!
got back to school, sec2s always will get scolded by me and han teck for sure! fool around in HQ... so talked to them all this and that.. i can't be bothered to scream and shout at them anymore(unless they make me dam pissed off).. doing this to them is like.... they won't even take my words to heart. what they do is one ear in and one ear out... this is what they will do for sure... return to the keys to teacher and headed home! till now!

i am sadded la ok! i wanna talk to you but i don't even have de courage to! what can i do? the more i see you, the more i cant take it! i wanna breakdown! but i held my tears back! this is what i can do.. i don't wanna breakdown in-front of you! if last time i breakdown! you would always try your very very very every best to talk to me and cheer me up! if it doesn't work! you would hug me! but now? it is different! it all not the same anymore! u would not care about me anymore! you take me as invisible! i don't have the courage to continue on like this already man! i am pray everyday! praying that you would return to your old-self and show me some concern! but it has not come true.. i always tell myself that it takes time... but how long will it take for you to change back to your old-self? 1yr? or forever!~? i am sad la! i am depress! i wanna talk to you! u can't just walk away from me and walk out of my life just like that!! what kind of friend are you! i just pray that you could return to last time!... i am praying everyday!... hoping that this would come true!

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