todays np was tiring but i like it lor. did drills with sec2,3,4s! wow!!!! love it man!!!! myucks! but mr lea training was tough like hell lor! wa! if he is my sir i sure like it de most de, his drills all this rox man! dan he teach very strict and gd! but when i see him teach hor, i laugh like hell with jing shen, angella. cuz i told them to see mr lea's fats! they nv see b4 ma, i saw it during 2006 national day. farnie seh! cant stop laughing lor. ok nvm. i keep on bomb that jing shen LOVES chan huei lor. hahas. so nice to diturbed him lor. ppl keep on say that jing shen is my brother. cuz name almost de same ma. hehes! stop here la.

to be frank with u guys, i cut myself again. this is bcuz of (prefer not to say) she said that i am heartless, i did not care bout her, everytime on9 tok for ahwile nia dan off9 le. i told her tat ( prefer not to say) can chat with her ma. dan she say i leave her alone and go to sleep. nvm bout tat, something i am most upset about is tat she said tat i nv care for her lor. if i did not care for her, i wont be toking to her her at all! she rather tell others tat she is not that close with tat she is going for operation dan telling me. dan i need ppl to update me dan i noe tat she is gg for operation. i tot tat it was her pt lor. nvm bout tat.. i cut for her and i cried for her. i am now speechless and i dun wan to care bout this thing anymore. i am lost. one fine day i will kill myself infront of ppl!