haiz, now of days very lazy to update blog lehz, is like not lazy la, is nth to write lor. since holidays start i have been at home for sometimes and very seldom gg out lor, dan i was like,haiz.... am i going to stay at home for tis long? be someone who is locked at home all day.. facing de same walls... or could i jus like go out and do window shopping man! thinking of this makes me feel mad... i dun wan to everyday like stuck at home rott, it is not say tat i want to go and work, i am not like my sis everyday want to work, dan now she dun wan to work anymore! i was like, wad de hell lor, tat time u rebel and nagg at mum for so long and wanted tat u wan to work, but now u telling me u wan to quit and dun work at all? where can like tis de, jus work for a few days u like tis le, dan next time u come out to work lehz? u going to sit at the work place and cry for mum mehz? y i say tis is tat my sis tat time wanted to work! dan now she gets to work, she dun wan to work anymore!... haiz, i duno her la. wad she wants to do i also cant stop her... now i worry bout is tml de camp, i hope tat i will be ok at the camp.... cuz everytime at camp or all tis kind of thing, i will sure to miss home and miss my darling baby! haiz, i am now so tired of my life man! wish tat i could jus take a knife, stab into my heart and let it all end. dan my worries are all finish....... i rather be a wondering ghost. i really dun like it sia, i really dun like my life anymore, my life is tat i could be happy sometimes and i could be sad sometimes, but sad days are more dan happy days. cant god let me have a happy days jus once? i duno y am i writing tis also, i jus feel like crying and end me life!!! it is very difficult to put a fake smile on my face everyday....

now i jus hope tat tml camp will be fun and i wont be sad tis camp days...